The family I grew up in
Proverbs 15:33
The fear of the Lord is the instruction of wisdom, And before honor is humility
M
y father was visionary and very serious. Looking out on the veranda with him to the open fields behind our house, and the beautiful clouds above, I listened like to his reflections. He praised God for that beauty, and I tried to join that as young as I was.The safety of standing next to such a father and above that of being allowed a heavenly Father who was only love and grace, as my father told me, and who always saw me, inspired great awe of God. But it also often left me with sad guilt when I was at the end of one day looked up to the sky through my bedroom window, and confessed my mistakes of that day to God.
I loved Jesus and wanted to do anything but hurt Him for bad behavior. With tearful eyes and fervently hoping for His loving forgiveness, I would crawl under the blankets and cried myself to sleep.
